This Week
- How the business mastermind went!
- Why I started crying this week and what happened
- The actual feeling behind “locking in”
October 2025
| Su | M | T | W | Th | F | S |
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| 28 | 29 | 30 | 10/1 | 2 | 3 | 4 |
| 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 |
| 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 |
| 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 |
| 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 11/1 |
Where In The World Was I?
- 🇮🇩 Canggu (Bali, Indonesia)
Metrics From The Week
We Love Sleep
There’s a whoop community for Men 20-30 with 183k members in it. Every so often I check it out. For September I ranked 140th out of 183,777 members for my average sleep performance score over the whole month.
140/183,777 is 0.00076179. It’s the top 0.07% percentile. This number just basically doesn’t exist 😂
Noice 👍
Snaps From The Week
Run Club
Went to my first run club (Nomas Run Club, Friday 7am)!
Also taking off my humble-hat for a second I saw this photo (below) and was like GAWDDD DAYYYUUMMMMMM 🥵🥵🥵
I’ve been training for like 4 years for literally just this photo, perfect lighting, perfect pose, perfect angle, not even pumped 😂
Reading and New Addictions
Been absolutely crushing books lately. Made my way through Atomic Habits by James Clear (read it 5 years ago) and Ikigai this week.
I’ve been super inspired and motivated with the idea of learning and developing skills that I can use to directly help other people: asking questions, coaching as a skill, starting good habits, breaking bad habits, creating behavior change in other people, helping people find meaningful work, purpose, fulfillment.
I read The Coaching Habit by Michael Bungay Stanier last week? and my god the number of times I’ve used EXACTLY what I learned in the book is crazy. It maybe comes up once every other day. I love this feeling.
I’ve also been struggling with a pain au chocolat addiction. Fuuuuuuuuck they’re so good ahah 😂 I would say I’m no longer intermittent fasting because my craving for that fatty chocolatey crispy morning pain au chocolat overcomes my willpower 😂
It’s kind of funny that I also struggled with this last time I was in Bali towards the end of my trip (The Week I Considered Changing My Entire Career Path (Again), December 10th, 2023)
December 8th, 2023 DailyV:
Gigi Susu
Love this cafe/coffee shop Gigi Susu. Their cold brew is the best I’ve ever had. Most are too watery. And their pain au chocolats are great as well.
And apparently this place is really popular on Tiktok or something. There’s always literally a line of people outside waiting to take their aesthetic Instagram photo here in front of the building.
I don’t have a picture but they literally have those rope lines set up just to the left for queuing to take a photo 😂 And there’s a full time security guard there to help traffic in case the line extends onto the street.
So anyways, I’ve been to this coffee shop maybe 10 times or so. This time I finally stopped to take this photo (below)
and I turn around and the security guard nods at me and extends out his hand and goes “I’ll take your photo”
I’m shake my head and chuckle “nah it’s okay” and he nods again “com’on”
“Allllright” so I hand him my phone and he takes a couple 😂
I felt embarrassed, I usually kind of roll my eyes at people who queue up in line to take the “Instagram photo”
But my man got the good shots 😂
Also I feel the need to add: I love these sandals, they’re super comfortable, but I frequently get looks from people. I think they seem to “look weird” but I’ve just stopped caring 😂 (that feels like such a boomer thing to say oh god 🤣)
Weight Milestone
First time crossing 200lbs! 90.9kg is 200.4lbs. Sure I didn’t weigh myself in the morning while fasted, but I’m still counting it as a W.
The bulk is finally bulking… 💪 Been at this for years now 😂
Business Stuff
The focus has still been on content lately. But I’ve also been putting together a proper offer doc for a new 12-week program offer.
Offer Doc
I had been struggling a bit with focusing in fully on one thing or who exactly to target with this, but a friend (another coach, similar target audience) recommended this course for $99 a couple times to me.
Finally I pulled the trigger and got it and he had this Niche Clarity activity that pulled everything together for me. It was the perfect final piece to this puzzle (for now).
I used that to put together a new offer doc and I’m actually pretty happy with it, a little like “damn this is actually crazy valuable.”
Gonna start getting some feedback on it.
Here are my current target client segments:
Segment A – High-Achievers Feeling Lost
- No clear purpose or direction
- Stuck in safe but unfulfilling careers
Segment B – Growth-Minded 24-32 Year Olds
- Procrastination and lack of energy
- Too much distraction, not enough focus
The Business Mastermind Dinner
In last week’s post I mentioned my uncertainty around what exactly I could “teach” on for this mastermind that a friend invited me to.
I ended up just basically going, “let’s go there, meet some people and see what feels right in the moment.” I didn’t want to talk at people or talk about something that wasn’t actually relevant to anyone.
I ended up going with the Tribal Solutions style idea of basically facilitating the space to jam on business challenges.
The whole idea for the dinner was a new business dinner mastermind concept as part of the run club (same one I went to this week). And for this night, the idea was like “business mastermind with Peter.”
I felt a little bit of imposter syndrome creeping in, like “wait… me?”
The owner/organizer of the run club was there, paid for my dinner, said he’d share the content they got with me, and basically just told me “the floor is yours, however you want to run this.”
It was also interesting observing how I acted, a bit more professional, also noting how my impression on the people here was a little different.
I had a note about impressions a couple months ago in The Week Of Stepping On Stage (August 3rd, 2025) (in a locked section) and how it’s interesting to think about what impression people have of you and how it can vary dramatically.
Around my friends I’m seen by them one way, they see my goofy and jokey side.
But then at this dinner no one has seen that side of me (yet). Their impression is something like “I’m here at this business mastermind dinner and this guy has been invited to run it, clearly he must be important or successful or something.”
I sat in the middle of the table, attractive women sitting on either side of me. Man, I felt like a Top G there 😂😂😂 I was like “wait… is this real life”
But anyways, I thought it went extremely well! The whole idea was that people share a problem or challenge they’re facing and we all jam on it, maybe someone has already solved that, someone else has an idea to share, etc. and they walk away with some new perspectives or ideas for how to solve it.
Thankfully I finished my little explanation and one of the guys jumped in first. I had this huge mental sigh of relief because a big downside question and risk was “what if no one presents something?”
The discussion flowed really well, other people were jumping in, I wrapped up here and there, prompted for anyone else to jump in. And it was basically like that for about 2 hours… much longer than I expected, but in a good way! Gosh if I had to just talk at people for 2 hours it would’ve been a disaster.
Some of the feedback I got after:
- I’m a very good speaker, very calm, organized. She asked if I’m as calm inside as I look haha. Said when’s my podcast starting?? Haha
- I’m a very keen listener. Giving other people the chance to share before I jump in.
- He missed having spaces like this in the UK, also said I knew when to ask the right questions.
So anyways, huge relief and success in my book!
New Leads
Went to a sleep workshop run by a friend. It was also just great to meet other people there and chat. I knew maybe 8 other people out of something like 20 or so, so that was also fun.
202510020802 The universe signs at the sleep workshop
#universe
I talked about this in a video last night, but something interesting happened at the sleep workshop last night.
I was talking to [name] and this other girl [name] joined in. We were talking about Nirvana for a bit, then [name] dropped out and I continued talking to [name].
At some point she asks what I do, I say something like "I'm a coach, I help people with mindset, productivity, and help lost achievers find fulfillment and purpose in their life."
She looked at me kind of maintaining a straight face, trying to compute what I just said, then went "oh... nice... do you like it?"
And I'm like yeah I've been wanting to do this for years.
She didn't have much of a response... a bit of awkward silence for a second. I go through the "am I gonna wait for another question from her? does she seem interested? she doesn't seem interested..."
So I go, "how about you?" and we jump into her work. She loves it. I'm reflecting back, smiling, laughing, asking more...
The freakin' contrast man...
Eventually the conversation slows, I jump over and say hi to [friend] and [friend].
Then seemingly out of nowhere, [friend] just spawns in (he was already there), comes up to me and goes "this is [name]." I shake his hand and [friend] just like walks away, so we start talking.
We get some small talk pleasantries aside. I ask him what he's been working on. He asks me back, and I go "I've been working on content and this new offer, helping high achievers who feel lost find fulfillment and purpose in their life."
And he looks off in the distance, scratches the back of his neck and goes "that uh... kinda sounds like me 😅" and so we start chatting about his work, his challenges, etc.
In the moment I was obviously like oh shit wow okay this is like exactly my target customer.
But I was showering later that night and my brain zoomed out... Like wait... what just happened there?
I don't know if we include [name] in it, but it was like the universe went, "here you go bro, here's your exact target customer, I'm even gonna just give him to you, you don't have to do anything" 😂
And later that week I was in the sauna and something similar happened. This guy asked me what I do, I explained, and he goes “oh I need to hire you!”
He left the sauna and gave what seemed to be a bit more of a generic “would love to talk to you more” so I was a little hesitant, but pushed through the discomfort and went up to chat to him later.
I maybe framed the conversation wrong and should’ve made it clear that I wasn’t going to try to sell him there, but it didn’t feel 100%, some of his answers were just short, looking off in the distance, he also seemed to not really know what he wanted. I felt a little bit of the “oh this is your target customer you can sell him if you’re good enough” but also I was like hmmm I don’t fully know how I could help him right now or if he’s the right fit.
So I kinda ended the conversation a bit early and wished him well. He asked to grab my phone number on my way out and we connected.
My takeaway from this was a bit of the: not everyone is the right fit, find the people that resonate the most and who are ready, rather than the “oh if I just say the right words I’ll convince them to pay me!”
A Sales Call?
Also, I had a call with someone this week about fixing her sleep routine.
I though it went really well, I felt quite good! Ended up again using what I learned in The Coaching Habit and it was extremely useful.
Towards the end I explained that I do charge for this, but I’d love to help her with it. We had some more back and forth explaining, and she was like “yeah that sounds fair” but still wanted to think about.
I’ve heard the “I need to think about it” can be one of those kind of “cop out” answers, so I was like “what is it that you need to think about?” and we started digging into what she really wanted.
I was proud of that. Not just folding at the first objection.
And man I just felt so confident, like “look I’m here to support you.” I didn’t feel needy. I liked that.
Content
Still posting a reel a day. I’ve been batching and scheduling which has been nice.
I recorded my first 2 proper sit-down talking head reels this week, then another session later that week 5 reels!
During the second session, I had a lot of fun with it and decided to go through all the footage and pull out all the funny bits into a behind-the-scenes video.
MAN I was laughing HYSTERICALLY putting this video together.
There was a bit of that discomfort feeling of putting myself out there but I pushed through it.
I swear I’ve rewatched this video 15 times since I posted it. Hilarious.
A friend I met later this week commented to me that he was impressed I posted this, how he could never because he would feel too “awkward/cringe.”
I thought about this comment later and thought… “Perfect. A little vote of feedback reinforcing that this is not about trying to go viral or get views, it’s embodying the self-confidence I’ve developed.” It’s authenticity. It’s showing people that I’m human and not only a “5 THINGS I DID TO GET TO $10K/MO” type of creator.
Aura
Speaking of embodied self-confidence… There were some moments from this week I noticed and thought “I feel like I have this aura around me.”
People keep looking at me… It’s like I’ll just be minding my own business walking around or doing something and I look over and make eye contact with someone looking at me.
But it’s not just one time 😂 It’s happened quite a lot at the gym as well.
I wrote in my nightly journal:
“9/29/25 (video from tonight) Been getting a bunch of eye contact from people lately the last two days. More than usual. Then walking out of Nirvana, running into [name], smiling, giving her a little eyebrow raise as well. Gave me some validation haha. Feels like I’m walking around with an aura lately.”
Emotional Reintegration
Been going to Bali Brotherhood for a while now and liking it. Without giving too much away, it’s basically a space to share wins, share what needs to be heard that’s weighing on people, and connect.
Sometimes the circles can get really heavy.
And I’ve noticed when this happens, I can feel the heaviness and emotion from the other guy sharing.
What I’ve also noticed is that while it can be related to something I feel, or similar to something I’ve experienced, usually this is triggered by someone else sharing. I related it back to something I seem to find unique about myself that I don’t notice in many other people, about feeling the emotions of other people (people label it as being an “empath”).
So this is like someone else sharing something really heavy and I feel the heaviness inside my body.
One of the tools I’ve learned to start using is how to be able to clear this energy after and not continue to carry it when this happens. I’ll take some time afterwards by myself to just visualize, feel into the heaviness, and reintegrate the positive (will show what this means in a second).
After this week’s session I did the same. I could just feel the little bit of tension and knew I needed some space to reintegrate it.
Without sharing too much, one of the things that contributed was one guy sharing this feeling of almost worthlessness because his own kid (2 year old) has been so much more attached to his mom than him and he was struggling with how to deal with that.
I was like fuuuuck man… Obviously I don’t know how that feels, but just imaging that hits really hard.
After the session I sat down by myself, closed my eyes, and just leaned into visualizing and imaging this… Imagining feeling worthless, not valued, basically invisible by your own kid. When I do this I usually hear and create a voice speaking to me “you’re worthless, you’re nothing…”
That started to generate a little water in the eyes.
Then after some time, I started to visualize the positive, feeling valued, worthy, feeling seen, imagining my own kid loving me deeply. Similarly, I create and hear this voice speaking to me i.e. “you are valued” as well as speaking from the first person i.e. “I feel valued.”
And bro it was crazy.
Tears started flowing. I felt it. I heard the voice “I love you.” I felt the feeling of being hugged, of being seen for showing up and putting in the work, the encouragement, the support.
I imagined myself in the gym working out, feeling alone, feeling the struggle, but then turning around over my shoulder to see me in the corner with his hands up, big smile on his face, cheering me on. Like fuckkkk.
I kept visualizing, I kept feeling this, and it kept coming in waves.
I started to feel this tingling sensation around my body (kind of like adrenaline) and this sensation in my brain, which I’ve felt before. It feels as if I’m connecting to something higher, to this energy of pure love.
And bro that just fucking hit me.
At some point I had the thought “I don’t even know why I’m crying anymore.” It was just such a powerful emotional reaction to the positive.
I was like wow… wasn’t expecting to cry that much but I guess I needed that.
I tried to capture this feeling in words and shared it on my Instagram story after. As I re-read it… that image, that feeling, it just hit me.
This is pretty much the same process I did a couple Sundays ago and similar emotional reaction then that I captured in The Week Of The Jatiluwih Rice Terraces Trip, (September 21st, 2025).
This visualization process has been one of the most useful emotional and mental regulation tools I’ve discovered in the last couple months.
Other Thoughts From The Week
202509280756 Brain dump - Hungry Bird
#journal
What's up.
Why do I feel rushed right now.
I feel this open loop with Hamza. Met him in the sauna two days ago. Had a fun little chat with him. He left to cold plunge, I couldn't stand it any longer in the sauna. So I left, but I didn't say bye, he didn't ask for my name. So I'm like ah I need to run into him again...
Why?
- To feel validated by him.
- To feel respected by him.
- To feel respected by someone I look up to.
- I don't want to feel like a nobody, invisible, just another NPC in his life.
Ya know, this also brings up... I saw [name] and [name] yesterday. Made and held eye contact with [name] as I was coming down the gym stairs... heh. Just said "sup" and continued to doing my workout.
I saw them upstairs doing handstands. I could see them looking down at the class and I'm _pretty_ sure they were also both looking at me. I was sweaty :)
I wanted to go over and say hi but I wanted it to be after my workout... I didn't want to _change_ my path to accommodate them if you will.
But by the time I was done, they had left.
Then I was stretching on the top floor... and [name] walks by me... nothing, no wave or anything.
I was like oof, I would've wanted her to at least turn to me and make eye contact, but nope. Like I'm invisible.
The other part of me, the rational part of me was like bro I'm not even convinced you like her energy that much... she's just got a fucking hot body haha.
So felt a little bit of that feeling invisible, not validated there.
Then I went into the sauna and actually started a conversation with the other guy in there. Just fucking went for it. That was a good moment. The guy ([name])? Not the best energy feeling from him, but hey that's alright.
Let's give this a moment to breathe. The desire for validation, to be seen by both of these situations.
[visualization]
202509280822 I can just give myself anything and everything I want
#manifestation #goals #feelings
So this weird thought came to my mind yesterday...
I was reflecting on what [name] was offering to me after [[202509270855 Bali brotherhood]]... Thinking about how when he asked why I'm doing what I'm doing, I shared that I'm searching for this feeling that I get from unlocking things in other people.
And then the thought came up, what if I could disassociate from that?
If underneath everything that we want and desire is a feeling inside of our bodies...
What if I just gave myself that feeling that I'm desiring?
And this brought me to two places:
1. Power
Think about the power you would have if you gave yourself everything that you desired.
You're in the gym and some guy makes a negative comment to you "bro you look small"
Rather than reacting with this negative sensation, out of scarcity and the desire to feel seen...
What if you ALREADY felt seen, valued, worthy, and proud of yourself. Imagine you woke up every day and felt this feeling. Imagine you tapped into it multiple times each day.
How would you respond now?
Notice how it completely changes the frame, because you're no longer seeking the validation from someone else... You no longer need someone else to say something for you to feel seen, valued, worthy, and proud.
2. The weird place: You no longer need anyone... like, anyone...
If you can tap into any feeling at any time... then you release the entire need for anyone, like anybody in the entire world, because you manufacture all the feelings you desire inside of your own body, within your own control.
I no longer need a girl to glance at me to feel that "fuck yeah I'm the man" feeling... because I can just generate that myself.
... and if I'm practicing this as a habit (which I am right now), then for example, I've just felt that feeling this morning by myself...
You literally become completely independent from the need of anyone in your life.
And THIS brings you to this third interesting place.
3. Living from abundance
If we get to this place where...
- Nothing anyone says can affect us...
- We don't require anyone else to generate the feeling we desire inside of ourselves...
What _happens_ next?
How do we show up in the world?
We can just give to others from a place of pure love and abundance.
Why?
We have everything we want.
We don't need anything, because we _already have it._
And THAT sounds incredibly powerful.
## Context
Video talking through this thought from 9/27/25
202510020748 Brain dump - Hungry Bird
#journal
Sup.
Fuck me bro I hear people that are like oh yeah I can get 7 hours of sleep that I start to doubt myself if I'm sleeping _too_ much.
The last two night I've gone to events.
- Nomas mastemind - got 6 hr 26 min sleep
- Last night sleep workshop - 7 hr 1 min sleep
My brain, I feel scattered, I feel sluggish. It's crazy.
What's up?
## The Sleep Workshop
[[202510020802 The universe signs at the sleep workshop]]
## Feeling Behind
What else is on my mind?
The desire to lock in and produce. I feel a bit "behind" still. Yesterday I worked in the morning, it was decent, got a little caught up in a bit of perfectionism but still got 3 reels scheduled. But when I got back to the guesthouse after lunch, I didn't really get much done...
And I've been going to the gym earlier.
But also knew that I had this workshop after so I wouldn't work after the gym.
I was like bro really? We worked for 3 hours this morning and that's it? I literally have no more time in the day? What am I doing wrong here?
## Lock In Feeling
I thought about this the other day... what _is_ the feeling of locking in?
What are the criteria for the feeling of accomplishment?
I felt it when I talked to [name] the other day. I had gotten laptop work done in the morning, some reel planning, then went back and recorded two reels. That felt good. All before like 1pm.
So let's think through this.
- Producing something external and tangible, reels, documents, stories
- Getting into flow
- Helping someone, coaching call, coaching conversation
- Gym workout
Honestly I think that's pretty much it, it's not too complicated. I think the core of it is producing something external. I've been feeling meaning and progress and accomplishment from posting reels.
Finishing up the [[202509291004 🌟 Clarity Sprint 1-1 Coaching - Offer Doc]] also feels good. I'm pretty happy with that.
Mayyybe we could dig deeper in here and go the "internal change is progress too" but man I want to hit these goals for my last weeks here in Bali. I'm feeling the positive pressure.
So the question is how do we generate this feeling of accomplishment?
- Produce shit.
Let's get to it.
Lock in my bro.
What’s Next?
“Lock in my bro” 🤝