This Week
- How I prepared for my second speech at the Give It All event.
- How it went!
- A realization I had about discomfort, comfort, and my own growth.
October 2025
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Where In The World Was I?
- 🇮🇩 Canggu (Bali, Indonesia)
Metrics From The Week
Snaps From The Week
Business
Had some great conversations this week and some feedback on my new offer doc. LOTS of content ideas from those conversations and already recorded a bunch of new ones.
I feel like my content is getting more specific and I’ve still been getting good feedback from my Reels so far.
One of the suggestions from someone else I talked to was to put together a workshop. I was ChatGPT’ing my notes from one of the conversations and it basically put together a workshop and framework idea without even mentioning it.
So while I still feel quite overwhelmed with trying to fit everything in and the speech this week, I managed to find a space to host a workshop (tomorrow, Monday the 20th). Excited about that!
Speech
The speaking and networking event I spoke at and went to a bunch of times in the last couple months took a break and then returned this week!
This time though it’s once a month. So, given that I’m leaving Bali this upcoming week 😳 I went for it again.
Fortunately the organizer set a criteria for return speakers, they have to be in the top 10% of YouTube video views, and mine is #1 for speeches this past season! So he allowed me to come back 🙂
This time though, I decided to change things up a bit and tell more of a story. I read Storyworthy by Matthew Dicks a couple weeks ago and it really resonated.
Did a ton of practicing this week.
- Tweaking, recording myself (audio), tweaking.
- Speaking it while reading. Speaking it without reading (learned from the book Make It Stick that effortful retrieval is what produces better learning)
- Speaking it with eyes closed. Speaking it with eyes open standing.
- Doing it with headphone in while music is playing (for intentional distraction)
- Recording it with video.
- Doing it with no pauses at all.
- Visualizing it without speaking at all.
- Practicing only the conceptual transitions.
- Mapping it out visually with Obsidian canvas.
It was fun.
I’ll share the video link when I get it!
It went super well. Very happy with the performance! The turn out was great! The most people they’ve ever had (maybe 50-70? there were 70 signups)
This content is not ready to be made public yet.
There were a couple other little moments where the mic acted up, but honestly I felt like I crushed it. I was also a lot less nervous beforehand. My heart wasn’t beating as hard.
The feedback also after sounded different in a good way. People came up to me and said they resonated with the message a lot. There were some comments I heard later about my story, so the story idea seemed to land because people remembered it.
Mastermind
Went to a great mastermind this week with the Brotherhood!
Honestly felt good to go from just the Saturday sessions chatting, connecting, sharing, to actually getting in the weeds with business.
Socializing
Finally Did It
One evening at Nirvana I was in the big sauna, stretching, maybe 8 people in there. Completely silent.
I finally spoke out… “talkative sauna tonight” 😂
One guy laughed, another was like “yeah 😂” and we started chatting.
Lol. I’ve been waiting to pull that card for a while.
Classes
Did some mobility and front splits classes this week.
This content is not ready to be made public yet.
Leaving The Guesthouse
After 4 weeks I finally left the guest house. It actually went better than I was expecting!
Got back to Tribal, shared dorm bed, and was unpacking my stuff into the drawer and little space thinking “oof yeah I miss the guest house 😂”
For like what, 4 months? I kept up the idea that staying in the hostel would be better because I was valuing the socializing more. Not anymore apparently 😂
Thoughts From The Week
202510160720 Brain dump - Gigi Susu
#journal
Wassup.
## Speech
Today's the speech!
- [[202510010727 Speech for Give It All - The Fear Compass]]
I've got a bit of a scratchy mucusy throat this morning, but we're working on getting it unclogged right now.
I'm excited again. I can't wait to deliver this.
During some of my visualizations I've been seeing these images and feelings that there's a lot resting on this. That I really want it to go well. To be able to send the YouTube video out to people after. For the content and branding. I feel some of the expectations to do well.
My response? It gets me excited, but I also feel this pressure to not mess up, for it to go perfectly well like the first speech went.
My fear? I forget a line.
There have been a couple moments practicing when I do forget, but it usually comes back to me in the natural pause I take between lines.
I had a _perfect_ run through this morning after waking up, did it eyes closed, just visualizing.
I feel quite good. There's just a few locations, jumps, that I need to really dial in so that they're so obvious I can't mess them up.
[...]
## Lungs
What else is on my mind?
Speaking of this throat thing. The past couple weeks I've noticed I feel like my lungs are a little bit more constricted than normal. It just doesn't feel fully _clean._
I'm wondering if this might be the air quality finally catching up to me here. Or maybe something about this guest house like some mold or something minor. We'll see what happens when I move back to Tribal for this last couple days.
## Competition
What else?
Back to the content conversation... man I had this thought the other day:
> No one can compete with me...
This idea of leaning into my authenticity, goofy style, raw, the self-confidence I have on video, the confidence I have in myself.
I'm just like bro gimme 6 months, people are gonna be like "how are you so successful" and they're gonna start looking at copying my reels strategy, copying my videos, and I'm gonna be like bro you just don't _get_ it.
Can't wait for this thing to blow up.
Anything else?
Nah, let's dive in.
Comfort
202510170718 Brain dump - Gigi Susu
#journal
Sup sup, we're back here, third day in a row. I wanted to reward myself with a pain au chocolat after the speech last night.
[...]
## Comfort
Francoi spoke as a headline speaker and MAN I really resonated with his speech, talking about comfort, growth, and designing intentional struggle into your life.
I was sitting there like bro this is EXACTLY the same learning I had quitting my job and moving into my van.
So I wanted to check in here...
What's my edge of discomfort right now?
- Recording youtube videos, VSL
- CTAs in my short form video, sales, selling
- [...]
- Training _harder,_ pushing harder, sprints (comparing myself to what I see Hamza posting, sprints on the treadmill). My weight+reps has sort of plateaued, I'm not really pushing myself much anymore.
- [...]
- Setting boundaries, addressing the "what if I make someone else uncomfortable" feeling
- Polarizing people in my content. "Not actually _fuck you_ this is my opinion if you don't like it fuck off" type of energy.
What used to be uncomfortable but is now _inside_ my comfort zone?
- [...]
- Speaking at Give It All, I did NOT feel as nervous as I did the first time, my heart wasn't pounding as hard
- Starting social exchanges, compliments, little comments, most of the time.
- Literally sitting here in Gigi Susu, this girl has pink hair next to me, I heard "oh that's cool," then she sits down with her friend at the table, but we make eye contact. So I blurt out "I like your hair." Easy.
- Working out shirtless at Nirvana
- Running the Nomas Mastermind dinner
- Recording Instagram reels videos
- Posting on Instagram, stories, talking head, sharing my ideas and thoughts
- Talking to people in the sauna
- Running Tribal Solutions
- Showing my emotions, laughing, crying
Is that it? _Really?_
_Okay I added a bit more, but man this still doesn't feel that bad. It all feels realistic..._
Ideas to _manufacture_ intentional struggle and growth?
- [...]
Bro honestly these don't really feel that unrealistic... That's crazy.
So after this morning, I’m like “huh this isn’t that bad”
Then I go to the Mastermind and realize that I have deeper fears directing my life. It was such an interesting moment and lesson to reflect on, thinking that things are somewhat under control but then realizing actually nope definitely not to the extent you thought. 😂
What’s Next?
Flying out of Bali WOW it doesn’t feel real yet 😳