This Week
- Why I decided to drive up to a cabin in the mountains this week.
- The insane photos from Jatiluwih Rice Terraces.
- Some raw thoughts on fear and feelings this week.
September 2025
| Su | M | T | W | Th | F | S |
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| 31 | 9/1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 |
| 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 |
| 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 |
| 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 |
| 28 | 29 | 30 | 10/1 | 2 | 3 | 4 |
Where In The World Was I?
- 🇮🇩 Canggu (Bali, Indonesia)
- 🇮🇩 Jatiluwih Rice Terraces (Bali, Indonesia)
- 🇮🇩 Canggu (Bali, Indonesia)
Metrics From The Week
😌😌😌
Snaps From Canggu
More rain this week, but not as much flooding as the storm last week.
The Feeling
202509140757 Brain dump - ARA Coffee and Sari Kitchen
#journal
## Brain Dump
...
The desire to get back posting on YouTube and starting reels. The desire to lock in. Bro I'm leaving in like 5 weeks. Fuck. LOCK IN. I want to be growing again on social media, start up that flywheel. What story do I want to be telling the guys at [location] and [location]?
_Remember what you told [name] yesterday?_ This is no longer about me, this is about using me to serve other people. _Man, connect to that again._
...
Writing my Life Update, thinking about my phone being on DnD, wanting more time to myself. Just had the thought, what if I just like drove up north and spent a week in north Bali, got some place alone, just went all in on myself, content, no more distractions seeing people... Hmmm.It was this thought/feeling that just came out of nowhere, but I decided to not question it… and just lean into it.
So I booked an Airbnb that morning. Three nights up in Jatiluwih. I did it here because some friends invited me to head up there last week but I couldn’t make it.
The Jatiluwih Trip
It was about a 1 hr 15 min drive. Not bad, just some rain at the very end.
Booked this little cabin. Such cozy vibes, nice amenities for being in the middle of a forest.
Changed my wake up time from 7am to 6:15am. Really wanted to lock in the morning routine. And wow it felt so much better and more intentional.
- 6:15am – wake up, brush
- ~6:30am – village walk (5-10 min), say “salamat pagi” to the locals and wave to the kids 🙂
- ~6:40-6:50am – stretch
- ~7am-~7:45am – read
- ~7:45am – meditation
- ~8am-9am – drive into Jatiluwih, to Batu Karu Kopi (first and best coffee shop that opens around there), coffee, photos, journaling
- 9am – drive to other restaurant to work
Mornings
Batu Karu Kopi
Jatiluwih Resto
CataVaca
Jatiluwih Photos
It was cloudy and rainy every day… but there were a FEW times the clouds parted and there was some sunshine (in the mornings). INSANE drone photos… Wow.
Business & Content
A big intention for this trip was to change my environment as a catalyst to finally get over this procrastination with content, create some shorts, and YouTube videos.
And so that was the focus.
I did some journaling, broke down the mental obstacles I had, then did a bunch of content ideation.
The first afternoon I was messing around with the Instagram Reels video editing feature, trying out the filters and effects. I thought it was hilarious, then had the idea to actually post it.
I felt some hesitation and embarrassment, questioning if it’s actually worth posting or if it’s too “off-brand” because it’s not a “value video” where I’m solving someone’s problem.
But I ended up posting it… It was a little moment of embodying self-confidence. Confidence to display myself through the embarrassment and not the “perfect” crafted image.
Got some great feedback from people.
Then had a dream that night that it got 800,000 views LOL. It didn’t (it’s at about 900 views, which I’ll still take).
Over the next day and a half I put together 3 other reels and 1 carousel post, all basically ready to post.
I also took a lot of b-roll clips while I was in the cabin and up in Jatiluwih. It felt effortless, which was a little surprising.
And it similarly felt effortless to put together the reels with my clips. I was expecting mental friction, but it’s WAYYY more “creative brain.” I came back one night tired, 7pm, and spent the next 45 minutes creating another reel, something I wouldn’t expect to be able to do.
From my nightly journal:
“Put together my first real Reel today, the “why don’t you chill” “alpha motivation” clips. So sick bro. Then tonight was just chilling and had enough energy and creativity to put together ANOTHER Reel, the slow morning clips. MAN my life is a movie.”
Reflections
202509200754 The Jatiluwih trip ...
#journal #travel
## Intention
I went to spice things up. It had been a month straight at Tribal. Needed a change of scenery.
But also just wanted some time to myself. Man, I've been having all these coffee chats, plus going to the gym, I feel like I just don't have time in the day to focus in. I felt like I needed solitude to just lock in and make some content.
I've been procrastinating on making content again for months, wanted a change of environment to push myself to do that again.
## Goals
Goals for this trip:
- [x] Finish content funnel
- Done
- [ ] Record 2 YouTube videos
- None
- [x] Record 3 reels
- Not talking head like I was imagining but actually _yes_ I made 4 reels while up there
- [x] Lots of journaling
- Wouldn't say lots, but did some focused journaling on my content obstacles, will count it.
## Results
And how'd it go?
Good things:
- Woke up earlier, locked in a recharging morning routine - walk, stretch, reading.
- Lots of reading, finished [[202509121103 Storyworthy by Matthew Dicks]] and started next book [[202509172017 No More Mr Nice Guy by Robert Glover]], reading in the morning, in the afternoon, and in the evening. Integrating that more intentionally into my routine.
- Loved the novelty, got excited to go to Batu Karu Kopi each morning and work from a different restaurant/cafe each day around Jatiluwih
- SOOOO beautiful, man, the last day was insane. Got incredible drone shots and photos.
- Posted my first Instagram Reel! Just a random video, I just needed to publish _something_
- Created and drafted 3 new reels!
- Got a ton of b-roll clips on my phone and drone.
- Filtered down content ideas for carousels and reels to ones I feel convicted with.
- Drafted a carousel post on sleep learnings, ready to publish.
- Did my first Crash & Burn exercise and came up with about 9 stories (content ideas) and relived memories (felt good) AND drafted a new little system with my [[202509181018 Story and Memory Log]]
- Felt that feeling of adventure, novelty, and exploration again.
Things I missed/Not good:
- Didn't record any talking head content - YouTube videos or Reels
- [...]
Worth it :)
This content is not ready to be made public yet.
The Guesthouse
Moved to a guesthouse for a week. Gonna ride this momentum.
We’re Back
Currently and unfortunately developed an addiction to pain au chocolats right now 😅😬
Also found a new cafe/coffee shop, a good one that I never knew existed, which is always fun 🙂
Thoughts From The Week
A friend is doing this little activity asking people one piece of advice they would give, to anyone. Here’s mine (transcribed below).
Transcribed:
September 15th, 2025
The feeling of fear that you feel is an indicator. An indicator of something you value. Explore it.
How?
For decades of my life I thought I needed new perspectives, mental hacks, logic, social media quotes to get me over my fear.
But in reality, the keys to unlocking my fears were inside me all along.
Sit down, physically close your eyes, and visualize your fear. See the situation, the worst case scenario playing out before your eyes, and observe what happens in your body.
Feel it, let it sit, be with it, and watch what happens to how you feel after.
Peter Meglis
Learning to express feelings/emotions
202509162126 A sign about guys wanting to express their feelings
#emotions #feelings #problems #universe
So [name] asked me on our first call about learning to express emotions more.
I kinda logged it away for a bit.
Well today, it's maybe 3 weeks later and I meet up with [name] and we get part of the way into his story and he starts describing how he's very zen and doesn't feel or express a lot of positive or negative emotions.
And that's something he's trying to change, to feel more of the spectrum.
I heard that and went huh, this is interesting... Now the second time I've heard this.
Wonder if it's a sign?
Integration
Last week, I woke up and something just felt… off. This is what I did.
Redacted a bit, but still want to share some insights into my world 🙂
202509140757 Brain dump - ARA Coffee and Sari Kitchen
#journal
## Brain Dump
Feeling a little bit unsettled today. Wanted to explore that today. Feels like there are some feelings that I need to feel.
But on a separate note, there's about 2 or 3 flies that keep landing on me... which are giving me a _wonderful_ opportunity to practice my patience haha.
I feel that feeling and desire to just lash out, GAHH, like grab a towel and try to just kill them.
But then I notice that thought and think, this is one of those opportunities when it's less about the external world, the flies, and more about how you RESPOND to the external world.
...
But first, give myself some more space... What else is on my mind? What needs to be felt?
Feeling not worthy, not valued.
- Seeing people ... in friend group pictures together. Seeing people chatting last night whereas I was all alone. Walking by [name] and [name] not looking at me ... Feeling as if no one is interested in me.
- Will come back to feel this.
- ...
- Feeling like I'm being taken advantage of. Other people using me and my presence without my permission or consent.
- ...
- Seeing friend group pictures/stories and not being invited. Like ...
- But it's also like, would I really have wanted to be there? ...
- ...
- Walking away from my chat with [name] feeling connected, but also feeling a little of this imposter syndrome, like here I am expressing that I'm struggling with being a people pleaser, setting boundaries, and I'm getting wisdom and advice from [name]. ...
- _Why do you feel the need to be perfect? Oh, you're the best in the world at this? There aren't any other people better than you? I'm actually proud of your vulnerability and openness with [name]._
Let's explore some of these.
[sitting and visualizing]
- Seeing so much on social media "you you you" and not enough "I I I", not enough love.
- ...
- The feeling of being invisible - not making eye contact with people, ...
- Tapping into gratitude, appreciation. [examples]. Why are we glossing over these, feeling "too busy" to remember these.
- Tapping into the negative: Thinking about [examples]. ... Wanting my voice to be valued.
- Tapping into the positive:
- Oh _man_... just teared up.
- I _see_ you. I see you putting in the work. I see you wrestling with this. I believe in you.
- This is what you need. This struggle you're going through. These challenges. Did you want it to be easy? Or meaningful?
- Seeing myself running on the treadmill, pushing myself, seeing the progress I've made with starting social exchanges with other people.
- You're the fucking _man,_ bro. You deserve it all.
- Tapping into this feeling of being valued. Look at the lives you've already impacted. Think about the people you've already touched.
- Tapping into that moment from [name]. ... Feeling someone really believing in me. Feeling that true support and encouragement.
- People need you. This is gonna be big.
- Tapping into this visualization of my future self writing a Life Update looking back on me right now (man that hit me). Like my big brother looking back, seeing me right now, putting in the work, the struggle, taking action, pursuing the dream. Really trying. Thanking myself in the present, from my future self looking back.
- Feeling this desire to share this on my Instagram story. This hit me hard man, wasn't expecting to cry this morning.
- Let's fucking go bro. This is what it's all about. Connect to that vision. You on stage. Touching the lives of people you come across. Believing in people and their vision. People coming up to you for photos after. People wanting you, desiring you. Loving yourself with so much abundance and expansive energy that it just overflows to everyone you interact with.
- That little moment from [name], "hey man I've seen you around and you always have great energy, I'm glad I got to meet you."
- That little moment scrolling the lost and found, and that girl [name] starting an exchange and hearing her say "I've seen you around..." In a literal sense, feeling seen.
- Fuck man I wish I could give this energy to other people. I wish I could help other people _feel_ this. I love this. I feel expansive. I feel love.
- This is what I needed :)
Man, that hit me hard, wasn’t expecting it.
The amount of value I’ve been getting from feeling feelings, visualizing, tapping into the negatives, fears, tapping into the positives… Wow. I’m really trying to figure out how I can communicate this to other people.
It’s crazy. I’ve never done something that’s unlocked so much action and change.
What’s Next?
DON’T TALK TO ME I’M LOCKED IN 😮💨😤