This Week
- The Give It All speech is now live on YouTube!
- The morning that unlocked recording 14 one-take reels with ease.
- The villa I moved into this week!
August 2026
| Su | M | T | W | Th | F | S |
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| 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 | 31 | 8/1 |
| 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 |
| 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 |
| 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 |
| 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 |
| 30 | 31 | 9/1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 |
Where In The World Was I?
- Bali, Indonesia
Metrics From The Week
Snaps From The Week
The Speech Went Live!
My Give It All speech (third one) went live on YouTube this week!
I had this kind of question mark in my mind if it looked and sounded the way I thought it did. My second speech, watching it back, it felt too rehearsed which I didn’t like. So I was like well yeah it felt good on stage, but did it sound rehearsed? Only one way to find out…
So I watched it back and wow… I closed my eyes and did the visualization that I walked through and I ended up tearing up… Wow wow, it sounded WAY better than I thought it did.
I’m super happy with how it turned out.
Gosh, so freakin proud.
I’m so grateful for the opportunity (opportunities) to speak!
And I got a bunch of messages from friends and people who watched, the feedback was great.
Gym
It still feels kinda weird… I was never really that impressed by my physique (was always just kinda skinny) but lately I keep catching myself in the mirrors at the gym, good lighting and I’m like faahhhhhkkkk goddamn…
And I’ve even been dropping weight, sort of cutting unintentionally in the last couple weeks. Gotten way leaner. Trying to re-focus back on bulking (constraint is just eating enough, which has always been my constraint…) and getting back to ~200lbs (I’m maybe 192-194lbs right now)
So anyways, I always had this negative/sour belief towards the jacked guys that would always take pictures of themselves in the mirror, I was like mehh so self-centered… Now I am that guy 😂 but fuck I just feel so proud.
Tribal Solutions
Had a fantastic Tribal Solutions this week. The last like 2mo have been super quiet, maybe 2, 3, 4 people. This week randomly we had like 12 or 13 or something. It was great!
And the feedback was fantastic, everyone loved it.
And one girl came up to me after and asked how much I charge (after hearing my intro) haha. Ended up having a conversation the next day and signed her on to the new program I’ve been working on!
Also at the end we were talking about visas and working in Indonesia and Mark, the owner of Tribal, came over and shared what he knows. It’s such a weird place because the rules are so grey here, and I’ve realized the more I know, the more kinda shady living here feels/is…
Kinda wish I could just go back to my 2023 version of Peter, so ignorant 😂
Biz
Been doing a ton of outreach and getting on a lot of calls these past weeks. It’s cool to think back to how much friction I had with sending messages, with jumping on calls, and now how easy it feels.
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Content
This one morning I came back and was sitting on my bed doing a little meditation and moved into a Focusing session.
This friction/resistance came up, feeling like I’ve been forcing reels and content lately, re-recording reels every time I mess up.
Realized I’m fearing judgment of other people, being seen as imperfect.
And that’s when something unlocked… And the ideas started flowing, started writing things down.
Finished out my focusing and felt energized and good.
Decided to try making a youtube video with just a simple outline but no script, not even a really good hook.
Grabbed my journal, hit record, and just started talking.
I ended up talking for I think 43 minutes straight.
I finished that and was like “woah”… It just felt so good, creative flow, speaking from experience.
Then, while still feeling that energy and flow, went between my journal to grab an idea, then just hit record on my osmo and just literally riffed for about a minute each and turned those into reels. I made 14 that morning…
So I went from spending like an hour to make 2 reels because of the outlining, scripting, re-recording mistakes, getting the right tone and energy… to making 14 each as one-takes.
I went “huh… something just happened here.”
I did this again another day this week, got another 8 reels out.
Again… “there’s something here…”
So I think I figured it out. And it reminds me of making my ramble videos back in the van, one of the ways I started making reels back in November that felt really good.
Every time I “try” I slow down… and I think there’s a lesson in there…
So anyways… it also just reinforces my thesis and belief about doing emotional work and the power of Focusing.
Health/Routine
Sleep and routine has been kinda shit lately, shit for me at least…
I didn’t have many (any) friends in the U.S., any evening events, my routine and days were completely in my control and so I was able to really dial my routine and sleep consistency.
But I keep finding that there are so many inconsistencies here, dates, dinners with friends, gym late, eating late, late calls, etc. that just constantly throws a wrench in my day and I have to adapt to it.
And it feels like every time this happens I lose in some way…
And to add on top of that, my stomach/digestion has been off the last week ish, finally seems to be getting better now, but I haven’t been eating as much (making me lose the bulking weight I’m trying to keep…)
So it’s like, eating less, less recovery, less sleep, working more. Gah.
Trying to get things back under control slowly but surely.
New Crib
Met a friend at Black Sand last week(?) and he was like are you looking for a place to stay because we’ve got a room available in our villa.
It was at the upper end of my desired budget, but within, so I checked it out and liked it!
Not perfect (hard to match the quality of the guesthouse I was just in), but the more I thought about, the better it felt as a full package. They’ve got an office room on the rooftop that has a podcast setup already dialed. And the location is freakin’ amazing.
So I went for it. Moved in for a month.
They’ve got a little espresso machine here as well which I’m PUMPED about.
Made my first espresso!
Tried weighing the grounds out on the second time rather than eyeballing it. It’s tending to pull a little too short so I’ve gotta keep playing with all the variables (how much, how packed, maybe trying different grounds, grinding it myself coarser – they use preground grinds but it’s actually not bad, just ground pretty fine).
Thoughts From The Week
202608050810 Morning journaling - Copenhagen
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August 5th, 2026 | Copenhagen
Woke up feeling weirdly refreshed. BAHAHAHA just opened Whoop, 84% sleep, 95% recovery, 102 HRV, 43 RHR. I wasn't sure because I went to bed late, 11:26pm, could've gone to bed earlier for sure. But also didn't work out yesterday, just treadmill walk 30 mins so that must've helped. Somethings been off with my routine lately. Don't have structure, feels like I'm not as focused, need my own Priority Lock. But like yesterday, got off call with [name], 8:15pm, hadn't eaten dinner, bedtime says 8:45pm and I'm like fuck bro, I want to sleep but I've only had lunch and if I don't eat I lose weight, fahk. Feel like I just can't win lately.
What else? Speech video went live and fuck I teared up during the visualization. Turned out so much better than I expected.
Something interesting I realized/been thinking about recently, I haven't really consciously chosen my friends. I was reflecting on tending to judge people, thinking about how at Nirvana I don't really feel called/pulled to deepen friendships with anyone. Those I talk to have felt more "invited" in if you will, that human design projector energy/concept. Thought that was interesting.
Ideas floating?
- TAC call yesterday - goal setting specificity, productivity - comes down to simplicity, applied. Nothing was revolutionary and seemed like Jack's whole biz was just my Priority Lock idea.
- My Proof Log needs updating, feels low ROI for biz owners, maybe more applicable to [name].
- Feeling so much more confident with Priority Lock and Signal Protocol
- [name] yesterday, the resistance, what's my framework for overcoming that? Understanding + Focusing?
- and [name] the fears that paralyze him
- what he actually needs: regulation capacity (daily habit), graded exposure with the fear, pattern mapping + evidence collection
- So: 1. map the freeze, 2. build regulation capacity, 3. grade exposure, 4. maintain + relapse recovery
- For [name]
- avoidance gradient rises faster than approach gradient as soon as get close to exposure, which is why resistance gets stronger
- goal is not eliminate fear but collect repeated voluntary graduated exposure
- controlled motivation "I need to" increases resistance vs. autonomous "I'm excited about this" from SDT
- identity-first, not freeze but redirect, needs graduated exposure to visibility
- Fix: name the pattern, decouple identity from action (frame as experiments), graduated exposure to visibility, reframe motivation using curiosity
- could riff on the idea of the ego: Oh yeah I know that already... yeah but your behavior hasn't changed, the mental masturbation, the idea that change will come from simpler action not insight now
202608070821 Morning journal - Blacklist
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August 7th 2026 | Blacklist
Pagi. Ever since [name]'s session + advice about writing down dreams I've been doing that and having at least one dream every night. Now I see the power + opportunity because there are some great messages in there.
Ideas in the cranium?
- bit demotivating that my main account story views are way down compared to persona, feels like I'm doing something wrong but tbh I think it's what I wanted, the people that want to stay are staying
- taking messages from dreams - such a GOAT'd idea
- [name] last night, made the offer, he's like "yeah it's cool/interesting" but then after I tell him more about ME, he realizes I used to be a SWE, analytical, but also feel deeply, he's like holy shit if I had the money I'd do this immediately
- I like coffee, it's tasty
- resistance coming from lack of confidence in what offering or selling - [name] + me also, and [name]
- [name] said she's in lets goooo, she's gonna help me really dial the resistance/fear piece of this offer, I'm excited
- feels so nice to be on a date not thinking about work or anything, just present, having fun (with [name])
- [...]
- the spring analogy from [name], just connected it to [name] too, he's like I've been working 16hrs a day for 2 weeks then past 2 weeks can't do anything, same with [name], the bounce back
- [name] couple days ago, this chapter of his life only sleeping 4-5 hrs a day, but feeling so motivated, clear, how that's biologically possible? did it for 2mo, then went back to get a job, bounced back to 8hrs of sleep but felt so tired, but said his dopamine during this was stable and healthy, not burnt out; I dunno, didn't make sense to me
- [name] yesterday sauna, subconscious/identity work using hypnosis, made me curious to use visualization more
- "insight fatigue" - not quite but need some term for [name]'s getting an insight, change, making change for 2 days then just back to old habits
- Immunity to Change - reinforcing validating the idea that our anxiety management system makes us not want to _feel_ something, to protect us from a feeling of fear specifically without the proper tools/solution/way out, which doesn't feel safe
- "scratching the itch" - term? was it [name]? something like, the more you can feel an itch, allow it, and not scratch it, the more money you'll make
- "your income ceiling is directly correlated to your ability to feel an itch and not scratch it"
- or.. "the time/space between..."
I’ve been recording my dreams lately, when I wake up and realize/remember my dream I’ll voice note it into a note in my Obsidian and wow… Crazy. Now realizing I’m having like 2, 3, 4 dreams every night. And some of them are kinda wild. I’m also now seeing the parallels between my dreams and how I’m feeling in my life, things on my mind, seeing them come up in dreams. It’s very interesting.
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What’s Next?
Daillllllllleeeddddd innnnnn running on multiple cups of coffee a day now 🤪🤪🤪